New Year’s Resolution 2008

Here it is:

I’d like to be easygoing.

Apple Dictionary: easygoing

The past year has been a little rough on me - starting a business, helping build an online community on Pownce, having my heart broken, living thousands of miles from my family, and being scrutinized on the internet. For much of the past year I’ve been tense, moody, restless and a much too serious person.

Well, life is tough.

My life is no rougher than anyone else’s and I’d like to get back to being the bubbly, fun person that I think I once was. I’d like to stop worrying what people are saying and start saying all the nice things I think about others. I’d like to be supportive. I’d like to flirt in my comments ;) I’d like to recognize all the people I admire and support their projects. I’d like to be a positive person. I’d like to get back to finding new music and going out with friends. I’d like to let go.

I hope this one goes as well as last year’s.

24 Comments

  1. Posted December 26, 2007 at 11:49 pm | Permalink

    Good for you,

    where you work can have a huge impact on how you feel, I hope that things go better in the new year. Hang in there for the geeks that are living vicariously through your adventures.

    Pownce Looks great and is always responsive when I log on. I dare twitter to say the same. I think the major reason that I haven’t logged on as much this last few weeks is google readers’ share feature accomplishes so much of what I was using Pownce for.

  2. Posted December 27, 2007 at 12:40 am | Permalink

    Hi, Jeff here, short-time reader long-time poster. Love the blog, it makes me want to learn python and/or write a webapp. At any rate, after reading this post, the following came to mind:

    If you close your mind in judgments
    and traffic with desires,
    your heart will be troubled.
    If you keep your mind from judging
    and aren’t led by the senses,
    your heart will find peace.

    -Tao Te Ching (52)

    Good luck with the resolutions!

  3. Ryan

    Posted December 27, 2007 at 12:48 am | Permalink

    Sounds like a good plan for ‘08. (I’m sure we’re looking forward to flirting back, too ;)..)

    Good luck with your resolutions. Here’s to a great year!

  4. Posted December 27, 2007 at 1:41 am | Permalink

    Hey Leah,

    You are judged well over this side of the pond (uk), I was impressed by your talk at FOWA.

    Have a good new year and keep up the great work.

  5. Ken Keiter

    Posted December 27, 2007 at 3:13 am | Permalink

    I’m glad to see that you’re going this direction. So many people let the tech industry get to them - and the web can be one of the most cut-throat places around. Through your anguish, however, you have made great contributions to the open-source and social-networking communities as well as inspired me to start my own OS project — django-graphs. Hell, I even applied to work at Pownce — not because it seemed like I’d make a lot of money or because I needed a job — but because it seemed like it would be something I’d love since you seemed (at least initially) to be so in love with it, and because technology (as weird as it seems) is my passion. Even if you cannot say that you’ve been the bubbly person you once were, it is a testament to your inner strength that you’ve continued over every obstacle that’s been placed in your way to find yourself here — shifting yourself into a more tranquil state of mind.

    I used to be exactly as you describe yourself — stressed, tense, moody, etc. One day, I told myself that enough was enough. I was done making excuses, and I was done being someone even I wouldn’t like. It’s so much easier just to be happy and take things in stride. Since then, I’ve started to see the beauty in everything — even the failure and strife that used to frustrate me so much.

    I’ve discovered that music has become a really big part of my happiness. Since you want to discover new music, I’d recommend a song by Frou Frou called “Let Go” — and also some stuff by Irving (such as “The Gentle Preservation of Children’s Minds” or “Jen, Nothing Matters to Me”) as well as The Broken West (”Hale Sunrise” and “Down in the Valley”). I don’t know if you’re into that kind of stuff, but it’s pretty zen for me. Maybe Jimmy Eat World (”A Praise Chorus”)?

    Ignore people that say bad things about you. Are they really worth your time anyway? I used to work really hard to please people that I didn’t even care about. Be proud of yourself — you’ve done things that some people only dream of! Good luck with your new attitude — it’ll serve you well!

  6. Posted December 27, 2007 at 4:46 am | Permalink

    Easygoing, I like that. The more easygoing you are, the less stressful you become. We all know what stress and being tensed can do to us. We should enjoy life. Reading your last year’s resolution and seeing how it all came true was inspirational. I didn’t believe in new years resolutions because most of the time I loose sight of my goal. In any case, good luck again this year.

    Oh, and to help you become more easy going, might I suggest tning in to the di.fm chillout station every now and then. I know music is one of those things that everyone has their own unique taste and preferences in but I heard some nice and soothing music there.

  7. Posted December 27, 2007 at 6:22 am | Permalink

    Best of luck of being “easygoing” in 2008. I think you’ll be able to do this with no problems. However, if you feel yourself being overwhelmed - Just remember that you can always play Whack-A-Mole online.

  8. Posted December 27, 2007 at 1:53 pm | Permalink

    Egads, isnt it a bit early for the new year resolution blog posts!??!

  9. Posted December 27, 2007 at 2:24 pm | Permalink

    Leah: things will get better when ya least expect it. seems like ya got the right attitude and that’s what counts! course, don’t try too hard to be easygoing…kinda defeats the purpose ;-)

  10. cannibalrock

    Posted December 27, 2007 at 5:16 pm | Permalink

    After reading everything you said you wanted to be…I couldn’t help but think to myself…I use to be like that too…until I got into a relationship.

    hah…i mean…You sometimes meet someone who changes you into something so slowly that you forgot who you really are. I’m glad you still have that memory of what you fancy.

    As for the a$$holes who like to say stuff about you…go figure, someones always trying to put others down to feel better, just be glad you’re not like them.

    Remember though, stress is just another way of saying you have too many things to do, ease back, you don’t have to please everyone. Just make yourself happy. It sucks, cause I don’t even know you but I feel bad for you that you do go through those kind of issues and problems.

    Take care and have a safe new years. Dont be too “easygoing”! haha. You might meet the wrong types of people…especially up in sf.

  11. Posted December 27, 2007 at 9:15 pm | Permalink

    I hope you keep this resolution, the world is too serious. So who broke your heart?

  12. darknight247

    Posted December 28, 2007 at 12:36 pm | Permalink

    Wait Leah…your single….wow and to think that I’m currently in SF for the Emerald Bowl and I could have actually tried looking you up. C’est la vie, though I am off to watch “Atonement” before the game and I would have loved the company, as the rest of the family tends more towards the mundane. Good luck with everything and really, you must add me to your mailing list. Muchas gracias, and if I get no chance on Twitter or Pownce…Happy New Year darling!!!

  13. Posted December 29, 2007 at 2:28 am | Permalink

    Hey Leah,

    You got me with this blog :-) , I feel the same this year, I even took a whole week off from my life, and went somewhere where no one knows me, I locked on myself and I started thinking about my life, what I’m doing, and what I really want to be.

    My first advice is to take some time off every few months, put your life on hold for a day of 2, and see what you’re doing, that will help you keep up with your new year’s resolution. Otherwise you can easly forget what you’re running for :-)

    We geeks are addicted to work, tech staff, and many other things, that many times we forget how to enjoy life.

    Pownce is great, but don’t make it the center of your life, go out with non-geek friends, don’t talk about tech and software 24/7

    My girlfriend left me because I never talked about anything except software and my tech business, it sucks, but we don’t realize that till something will happen in our life.

    Don’t try to be someone else, you’re great person (I heared you in London) :-), be yourself.

    I wish you all the best in 2008, I’m sure you can do it.

    John Morad,

  14. Posted December 29, 2007 at 8:23 am | Permalink

    good resolution… we live in a strange world where it is so very easy to get caught up in everything and lose your sense of self. you get pushed in every direction and you lose site of how you want to be.. whether that means easygoing, or happy, or aloof, or whatever.

    my issue is anxiety.. its a tough battle, but my resolution is to beat some of it.

    have a happy new year.

    -Corey

  15. Posted December 29, 2007 at 9:00 pm | Permalink

    Ahhhhh, so that’s why you grumped at me at OSCON when I went fishing for an invitation to check out your laser-etched laptop. Either that, or you had to run off somewhere.

    Oh, and under Top 5 Female Hackers, you should have included Lex Murphy — http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0002041/ who emitted the classic hacker line “It’s a UNIX system! I know this!”

  16. brian

    Posted December 30, 2007 at 2:45 pm | Permalink

    Sounds like a good new year’s resolution to me, but I’d recommend you set some measurable goals for it. If you set a few goals now, in 6 months, you’ll know if you’ve done anything to become easygoing.

    Here’s a start:

    Once a week I’m going to go sit in a coffee shop, alone or with friends, and not talk about my work, relationships, or stress. I’m going to read a book for 30 minutes and be nice to the baristas.

  17. Posted December 30, 2007 at 5:45 pm | Permalink

    +1 on Ken’s Frou Frou recommendation. Good stuff.

    Part of being on the ‘Net is being scrutinized. And, in turn, scrutinizing.

    The other part is remembering that, in reality, we’re all writing from the safety of our comfy chairs, behind closed doors. In this environment, everything is amplified, for better or for worse. You just have the special privilege of being well-known, so your deeds go under the microscope.

    We do it for attention; we do it for fun. Never let it get to you. Remind yourself that we likely haven’t written a platform used by people to send over 1,135,032 messages to their friends and associates (at the time of posting). If all else fails, feel free to reticently bask in the knowledge that you’re doing something cooler than 90% of the people who bash you.

    Party hardy.

  18. Posted December 30, 2007 at 11:38 pm | Permalink

    Party Hardy indeed!!

  19. Posted December 31, 2007 at 11:26 am | Permalink
  20. Posted December 31, 2007 at 12:00 pm | Permalink

    Well said, Leah. I went through a similar realization about a year ago, and it’s taken me this year to feel “myself” again. Just keep at it, and don’t be surprised if i takes a while. Find the activities and people that recharge you and make sure you spend lots of time with them. And most of all, Love.

    All the Best…

  21. Posted December 31, 2007 at 1:08 pm | Permalink

    Life should be fun… so starting 2008, enjoy it.

  22. Posted December 31, 2007 at 6:40 pm | Permalink

    Remember: the high in the Twin Cities tomorrow is 9 degrees. Idiots really like to drive 70mph on 94 in the middle of a snowstorm. Your family can always come visit you. Sun Country offers cheap-ass flights from MSP/HHH to SFO. Yes, it really is better on the West Coast than back in Flyover Country. That’s why we moved as soon as we left the U of M.

    Your fellow MN expatriate who is still freezing his ass off in Seattle.

  23. Anne Culver

    Posted January 2, 2008 at 11:49 am | Permalink

    Interesting…my New Year’s resolution was to start taking myself more seriously, and in effect, hopefully others will take me more seriously as well. I have always been easygoing, and I love that, but unfortunately that quality has left me rather stagnant in the past year.
    It wouldn’t hurt for me to become a little more tense, uptight and competitive…what do you think? I don’t think I would be the same old Annie Fanny Pantyhose though :(
    Weird how we’re so different…
    Well, good luck on the resy! When is a good time to come visit again?

  24. Posted January 2, 2008 at 3:12 pm | Permalink

    Hey Leah. There is a time for everything, no? Perhaps being overly serious helped get you where you are today, business and all. Though distant family and heartaches certainly suck the bubbly out of life! :-( It’s good to see you are on your feet, ready to take on a new year. I wonder… being easy going can be passive, it doesn’t quite do justice to your entire resolution. Encouraging others does take a little effort, a willingness to look outside ourselves. It nice to see all the people offering encouraging words to you, and the great attitude you have towards life. All the best in the new year… & happy Django hacking :-)

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